It's been about two months after my last post, that horrible post. Lol.
I'm now in Depok and after these two months so many things happened. One of unexpectedly joyful thing is that I met these four kids named Ahut, Judith, Kevin, and Susi. They're my apipa-s (Red : anggota pengabaran Injil lewat pendalaman Alkitab). We've learned about the fall of humans which separated us from God, the bridge to go back to God, who is Jesus, and things we do as our thanksgiving for being united with God again. They're so nice and each has different characters.
And after PIPA's finished, there are some times left before they go to their own small group. Actually I feel like having a will to be PKK of Kevin, because I'm quite responsible for making him join small group. Like... I've promised him something that I can't even make sure it will happen. But yeah... let God work for this case. I just hope each of my apipas will get a pkk who can give them right teachings about God and also love.
Then I failed my mid test. ALL kind of mid term; be it my Japanese mid test and also my campus mid test. I am also in big trouble now. I hesitate to study human resource management more deeply. You know, I think I am in my darkest time rite now; I cant imagine how my future will be; I cant even DREAM. No...
And the biggest irony , recently, is that I tried to do my best in my service to God; being a good MC on Friday worshiping, singing well as a singer, writing an article for the weekly bulletin, being a caring PPIPA for my APIPA but I messed my personal life.
I still thank God that I'm forgiven, after all mess I've done.
But the most difficult thing is to be forgiven by... my own self.
This random letter is so hahaha.
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