"I believe in God. I do trust He exists. But I don't think I should stick with any religion... I don't think any of them suit me, suit values I'm holding..."
Recently, I've been realized that people, who call themselves agnostics, really exist, here in Indonesia. As we all know, Indonesia is a religious country and, perhaps because I usually live in the places where people are known to have their own religion, I am so surprised to know that agnostic one is really... soooo near to me. And I can't believe he was one I used to have a crush on...
He was Christian before. I am disappointed... Not because of my crush on him but more of how he throws away salvation offered for him just to hold what he thinks what's right...
Call me shitters, but I just conclude from everything I analyze on him. He's a libertarian--really is. and he's proud of it. He holds that fathom from top to toe of his. Not just an libertarian in economist, but for every aspect of his life, he holds that. That is , I figure, why he become agnostics... Trusting God but choose to hold no religion for he believes everyone has their own preference and should not be ruled by others...
I may not be as religious as a pastor, but I don't think becoming agnostics is a good decision of his life--nor of any people's life. If one thinks holding certain's religion will tie you for it consists of so many rules, norms, telling you what needs be done or not... If one thinks that doing as he/she likes is what's best for him/her... Then what does one believe in God for?
He is really influential. so unfortunate that he will only bring that kind of influence for his environment. I don't know what's so good from liberalism that he chooses to be with for his life. doesn't he realize that this fathom guarantees him nothing at the end? that this fathom will soon expire after his life? that it is vain to hold on and act according to such a fathom for all his life in this world?
If only he understands that it's not religion which rules... it's God, who has given life to every human in this world, who takes care of human when none's beside, who sacrifices His Son just to save human from death, so that He can live with His creature forever. If only he understands that after all God has done, there's no reason for him to crown himself as the king of his life... there's no reason for him to believe that he himself knows what's best for him, there's no reason for him to say he trusts God but because he has his own values he... arkh...
If only he knows that Christian is not only a religion and does not tie... it's an identity... for it tells everybody that 'I am a follower of Christ'. Which shows everybody that 'I am FREE! FREE FROM EVERLASTING DEATH! HEAVEN IS JUST ONE STEP AHEAD!'.
It's so hard for me to explain but never focus on the religion, focus on God. It's not religion that holds, but God does. it's not religion that saves, God does. It's not what you've done, but what God does that saves, for He sacrifices His own Son just for this world...
Well, I seem to dramatic and judgmental. But I'm so sad to know that one near to me can be like this. At last, that's his decision, for this time. I can only pray that God will do something for him...
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